So, I had an MRI a little bit ago. And the other day I saw the neurologist.
And casually he tells me I have a benign tumour.
And I need to have another MRI with contrast, so they can be sure.
I kinda want out right now. I'm having trouble with the last couple of years.
At least my asthma is under control now.
now listening to:
Far Side of Crazy
Wall of Voodoo
I love this song so much, if my throat was feeling better I'd be yelling out the lyrics.
NB: yelling vs singing as singing is not something I can do.
health and psych stuff (ranty) (warning some discussion of SI)
needless to say I've been unemployed since May.
My mood is not good, and bad urges return.
Thankfully I do not smoke anymore so my old method of burning myself is out.
And I've trimmed my nails short so I won't scratch at my skin.
I just feel so worthless right now.
It could be a result of the anesthetic, and I'll be fine tomorrow.
but right now I feel really bad.
I just want something to go right for a change.
health and psych stuff (ranty)
I just can't seem to catch a break over the last two years.
I had a major breakdown last year, that had me hospitalised for over 8 weeks at Albert Road Clinic.
Then I return to work and get made redundant (this is most likely illegal but I don't have the strength to fight such things.)
At least a few days I pick up another job fairly shortly after.
Unfortunately, my asthma starts getting worse (it had been bad for a year or so at this point.)
So multiple hospitalisations, for this.
Then I start getting fits at work, the Neurologist I see medicates me for this and this partially helps)
Athough multiple hospitalisations for epilepsy and Asthma continue.
Then I get told about Nucala the monoclonal antibody that will cure my asthma (this is late Feb this year.)
unfortunately my lungs are still too good.
then I break down again, and end up at Albert Road clinic again for 4 weeks this time.
Once out, I get made redundant again. (Again Illegal but I just don't have the will power)
Note I'm still having fits at this time. While reduced they never go away.
So after a few more hospitalisations I'm unwell enough to get Nucala.
This seems to cure my asthma, and still to this day I've not had to take any Ventolin since the shots started.
Now this month, My gallbladder attacks me.
Pain like nothing on earth.
Can I have a year without sickness please.
Old Goth, Hacker, and Amateur radio operator.
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